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Wednesday, November 29, 2006, 3:40 PM
hey yo.its late now. haha. just finished doing some holiday assignments. whoa. i like the feeling of having done something IMPOSSIBLE. LOL. im left with maths exercise from tys and chem w/s. yay. gonna get them done by this week. =D
i've found out a talent of mine that have never been discovered. (at least not by me) LOL. i can foresee the future. im not kidding! i really can. i kept thinking about a particular thing. and it hits me that its going to happen. i know it sounds ridiculous. but if it really happen as i had foreseen, i would feel very betrayed&angry. as this thing sounds so oh-my-god-are-you-nuts?, i have to be careful who im going to tell this to. cause that person would be so traumatised and send me to woodbridge. LOL. and of course cause that thing concerns some people. i cant let it slip. if not they would call the woodbridge and send some paramedics to tied me down to the stretcher? LOL. i have no idea what happen to loonies. =X
this thing made me lose sleep plus my appetite. and i think im quite bothered by it. im trying to make it less of a big deal but then its quite scary how you knew something would happen and you didnt want it to but at the same time you cant do anything to stop it from happening. yeah. thats how i feel right now. although it sounds so terrifying, its also a good omen! i can foresee the future! i've got a job secured now. LOL. i can use tea leaves or maybe the tarot cards.
>BAND
yay. Ms Lai's back. i think she hit her head real hard on the accident? LOL. im just joking. i kind of miss her. =) she look so skinny now. at least to me. but its nice to know shes better now. can tell she misses the band. =D she kept smiling when see us. and er. lots of comments from her. haha. yeah, and shes not satisfied with our Jericho. hmmm. maybe we're really numbed? 5 more months to SYF. but we have to get ready by December. theres not much time left. =(
alright now, have to go to lala-land now. tml band again. 9-5pm.
There's no easy way to say goodbye,
So baby just say goodnight.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006, 2:52 PM
just for laugh.IN THE PAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU :
o1 . Cried : No.
o2 . Worn jeans : No.
o3 . Met someone : Yes.
o4 . Done laundry : Yes.
o5 . Went hungry : No.
o6 .Talked on the phone : Yes.
o7 . Said I love you : No.
o8 . Do u believe in yourself: Sometimes.
o9 . Your friends : I do.
1o . Tooth fairy : Once. Just Once. LOL.
11 . Destiny / Fate : Yes.
12 . Ghosts : Yes. =S
13 . UFO : No.
FRIENDS AND LIFE :
14 . Do you ever wished you had another name: Japanese name? Nah.
15 . Do you like anyone: my friends. and theres someone i used to.
16 . Which one of your friends acts most like you: like me? im the one and only Elaine hor. XD
17 . When you cried the most who was there: Me, Myself&I
18 . What's the best feeling in the world: Being lucky&loved.
19 . What's the worst feeling in the world: Lost something that meant alot to you.
2o . What time is it now: 10.40pm
WHICH IS BETTER :
21 . Chocolate or vanilla : Both.
22 . Coke or pepsi : Coke?
23 . Love or Lust : Love.
YOUR PICK:
24 . Mac or KFC : er. Both.
25 . Single or group dates : Group dates. the one i missed.
26 . Adidas or nike : Nike.
27 . Lipton Tea or Nestea : Lipton Tea.
28 . Cappucino or coffee : Nah. i hate both.
DO YOU:
29 . Smoke : No.
30 . Curse : Yes.
31 . Take a shower : Yes.
32 . Have a crush : No.
33 . Think you've been in love : When i was young and ignorant.
34 . Like school : No.
35 . Want to get married : Yes.
36 . Think you're a health freak : Never.
IN THE PAST MONTH:
37 . Drank alcohol : No.
38 . Gone to the mall : Yes.
39 . Been on stage : No.
40 . Eaten sushi : Yes.
41 . Been dumped : No.
42 . Gone skating : No.
43 . Dyed your hair : No.
44 . Changed who you were to fit in : I tried but failed to.
45 . I LOVE : Strawberries! chocolates! friends&family.
46 . I FEEL : Disgusted.
47 . I HIDE : Thoughts&feelings&my past.
48 . I MISS : Being a kid.
49 . I NEED : Money. cause theres no more kinship in this world.
done. from Winnie's blog. =)
2:05 PM
i feel like vomitting.so disgusting.
1:13 PM
The broken watch you gave me turns into a compass. It's two hands still point to the same time 12:03, our last goodbye.
12:33 PM
hello.okay, i've finally made my decision. =) im quitting mac at the end of this year. yay. then im free again. as for my income... i'll have to save from my allowance luh. cant spend like rich taitai. haha.
die die die. i cant finish reading the books i've borrowed from the library. omg omg omg. the due date is coming. have to chiong liao. haha.
>TODAY
alright. i went to BWC, my previous store for attachment cause they having crew outting today. nobody seems to recognise me&yf. haha. only Yani and Ziwei remembered us. the other crew were from Fajar i think. no idea. but they quite funny bah. kitchen crew all playing, like very fun... while i so kelian, at counter doing nothing. LOL. slack slack slack.
i bought marshmallow! just the same as last time that one! but it tastes different. x( this one too sweet luh. no milk de taste. boo. i found After Eight chocolates too! but i didnt buy. haha. no money lah. though not very expensive, 8+ like that. im broke. =( i missed the limited edition package but nevermind. haha. you dont know what im talking lah. shhhhhhhhhhhh. =D
oh ya. i want to try Big Mac. always wanted to try but dont know why, i always ended up with a Mcchicken on my tray. LOL. i love Mcchicken. haha. mac's ice-cream tastes nice too. haha. im not picky. =D
nothing more bah. im going to return some of my library books and band tml.
thats all.
see ya.
Saturday, November 25, 2006, 2:32 PM
hi.changed blogskin again. i've done some maths holiday assignments and i hate holidays. feel so disconnected from my friends. hmmm. wanrong reply my msg okay. sorry wetwet, i'll send the songs to you tml or something.
>BAND
nothing much. the school seems so quiet. i kept imagining people running around. LOL. i hope for our next school term badly. i miss alot alot of things. and i really dont like my routine now. working, band, working, band, on&on... nobody is ever free to go out with me. they would be either too busy with their cca or i could hardly reach them. =T im like living in a unfriendly world, the best part of it, is lost in contact. argh. ever wonder that the internet really brings the world to your doorstep? i seriously doubt it. why? cause i can only reach out to things that all strangers to me, while my usuals are out of my limits. and my usuals are my world.
even though i always wanted to disappear for some days, but this time its different. its like im being forgotten rather than reminded for being missing. i dont know what the shit im talking here. it wasnt long before i went out with somebody, but i feel just so black&white.
had lunch with the band peeps this afternoon. i felt so... different from them. i dont know why. i just feel they are happy people and music is their life. im not. i dont understand what im going for and what is music. to me, studying really helps. but music. its not the sort im in for. i admit i love the sound coming out of my beloved instrument. but i dont have the talent and hardworking-ness in me. im lazy and full of shit. i always pretend to be so high&mighty. i might as well be killed.
theres so many things i regretted doing in my 15 years of living. i bet i would have lost my everything at the age of 30. touchwood though. i just couldnt figure out why my mind just dont spin fast enough and consider every factors. im sick of all the consequences. and im the only one to blame.
okay. i felt that this post is kinda too complicated. its okay if you dont get it or think im a labelled dangerous animal. im numb to everything. cause somehow my brain just cant stop the shit.
im bringing hell to myself.
i asked for it.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006, 5:32 AM
>NO LIFE.yay. gonna have dinner with MK&jolinne.
i think i finally get over it.
elaine is a strong asshole~! =D
mummy bought chocolates for me. yay.
and she paid my telephone bills. double yay.
I LOVE YOU, MUM.
my cupcakes look horrible! :S
but they tastes like <3
i forgotten about the chocolate so i put it on top of the cupcakes before i put them into the oven.
and they became like that. x( but it tastes not bad sia. =D sweet. kind of reminds me of my childhood. haha. when i still live in Holland Road. haha. bet nobody has any idea what the shit im talking about. LOL.
i'll shut up now.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006, 1:07 PM
>THANKYOU.tml's MK's birthday. =) though its a pity we're not going out tml, but good luck in whatever you do and of course best wishes! and ya, good luck for you job interview. next time we go out together okay. i miss you.
>BAND
so long didnt see jolinne le jolinne! ni shou le! haha. i miss you too. actually wanted to have lunch together de. but then the SLs were having a meeting. and it took a frigging long time. haha. i overheard some stuff. =p band camp. lalala.
thankyou jolinne, MK&kk for the present. =)
hope we do keep in touch.
Friday, November 17, 2006, 2:53 AM
>RANDOM
> in memory of Piggy and Slimy.
>I'm rad, You're rad. Let's hug!
>my kawaii friend. =D
>um, we're trying to test the mirror's clarity. =D
but sad to say, my damn phone's quality is fffffffffffffffff lousy. =T
>meow meow~
>TODAY'S POST
alright, i woke up real early today to make my IC. my brother say there might be traffic congestion as President Bush coming to singapore. &_& big people... then then then i went to market with daddy to buy some groceries. we are having fishball noodles later for lunch.
hmmm, going to Malaysia on the 25 Nov.
>YTD'S POST
alright. ytd was quite good i guess. kok, yeele, kq&vannie didnt come for band. x( then have to play out. okay, im not trying to show off or what... but i cant hear my junior. i can hear myself! and i got my fingerings and phrases correct! woohoo!~ maybe its only in such situations, i will push myself harder. haha. the high parts of Jericho aint that hard actually. =X but of course lah, i cant reach the high F&G that often. so its abit um, not nice. boo. and i've found out something. our section cupboard is in a big mess! i thought mk arranged it the other time. &_& alright. now its my turn. for a more 'condusive' environment. LOL.
"... and elaine is sooo cold until her lips turned purple. and her eupho i think is the cleanest in our section. LOLs. so bright & shiny luhs :D "
from my junior's blog. wahaha. the ava room is freezing cold okay. the peeps forgotten to switch off the air-con after open house. and it was left on for like 2 days? omg. ytd was very cold too. but Mr Lim said it was good. Z. haha. for syf cause the concern hall would be just as cold. well, i hope the air-con broke down. LOL. but then it will be very stuffy... hmmm.
and of course my instrument will ALWAYS be the shiniest. =D i clean and i wipe my instrument everyday =D. though the instrument i using now actually doesnt belong to me in the first place, it belongs to Jol, i still take so good care~ SEE, im not biased. =D my old instrument is the shiniest last time. but after it was being given to yeele it became... ... dont say le lah. i heart pain. T_T haha. Jol must come and see your baobei wor, i take very good care of it. the shiniest now you know. thank me!
thats all. i miss my seniors. i miss being their beloved junior. =D
life will never be the same, without you people.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006, 1:53 PM
I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
i fell in love with this song. =D
Wednesday, November 08, 2006, 2:18 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!alright, i feel so damn happy today. this is the most memorable birthday i've ever have. 2 birthday cakes, a sushi feast and lots of prezzies! =D thanks everyone. especially wr&yf. i love you all.
thankyou to those who had wished me happy birthday and had given me prezzies! =D im sooooooooo happy. sorry my vocabulary bank very limited, i cant stop using the word "happy". LOL.
Best day of my life.
7th Nov, not lonely anymore.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006, 12:50 PM
lying in your arms, feeling your warmth.
from dusk till dawn, lets watch the sunrise together.
9:35 AM
eh. its been some time already. =Di dont have any new updates. x( lets see. um, i've been working for these past few days, gonna find some time to spend those HARD-EARNED cash. hee. and and and. i have sort out my working schedule. so i can come for all the band practices. just that i've got to leave early on saturdays. kok, i do this because of you! haha. no lah. i scared i no cca points sia. =X
mummy&daddy's birthday. haha. we had a feast. LOL. theres cake! chocolate flavour one. we had fast food. omg. i can never slim down. LOL. tml... sushi feast! haha. i've been waiting for it so frigging long! its coming! yum yum. cant wait, im drooling now. x)
oh ya, just had the maths quiz. wtf. i got 74%. boo. got 4 questions wrong... and it cost me 26 marks. omfg. nevermind its okay. haha. elaine can take it easy. cause shes stupid.
the weather is soooooo bad. my eyes hurts and my rashes came back to me. HAHA. shouldnt have eat that big fishy ytd. LOL. i've been scratching like hell in class. lucky i had some powder with me. i looked so red and my daddy told i ran all the way home when he saw me. HAHA. funny.
hmmm, actually im not very looking forward to tml. haha. cause every year, on this day, bad things happen FOR SURE. eversince when i was in Pri 3. yeah, its like a curse. i hope nothing bad happens tml. x( cross my fingers.
now now now, is this entry long enough? =D
i don't feel anything.