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Monday, April 06, 2009, 8:56 PM
>My breaking point.I didn't realise how weak my body is, till today.
Today was actually my offday... but due to shortage of staff, I have to work half day. No movie today, postponed to next monday. I feel so tired and I wanted to shout at the passers-by for just being there wherever I were. Thats how bad my mood was. Purposely missed dinner and bought 2 big bags of chips. I want to stuff myself, make myself bloated and sleep till the next morning. Apparently thats only my wishful thinking cause Dad forced me to eat dinner when I got home. zz.
My feet hurts. I can even see my veins pushing thru my pale skin, they look like they going explode. After dinner, I sat on my bed massaging my thighs, listening to some loud music, destressing. And almost like magic, I fell asleep waking up feeling better in my mind but my legs still hurts.
Hmmm... maybe its monthly blues coming. Argh. I can hardly smile at work, my smiles are so fake and I cant frigging stand straight. My back feels sore. I got so many problem I feel like breaking down into tears. =(
Worst of all, I keep stuffing myself with junk food. Its a strong craving... to satisfy my emptiness. =(
This is such a sad post.